It’s been a while since I’ve written a new post here and a lot has changed. First, the obvious. This blog has changed. Now my The Artist in Wonderland blog has its own domain (www.aiw.wtf) and I created a brand new and vastly improved theme for it. The last theme was garish and difficult to read. I don’t know what I was thinking! Oh well, it’s all better now. I also started a new Tumblr for this blog rather than setting up blog subscriptions via email. I’ll also be posting updates to my Dream9Studios Twitter account, at least until I decide to start a new account for AIW or just keep using that one for this in addition to the D9S stuff.
So how are things going right now? I’m a mess mainly due to my Dad’s declining health. My dad and I have always been very close so seeing him deteriorate like this is breaking me. The stress of not knowing exactly what’s wrong and wondering how much worse it’s going to get has been doing a number on me. It’s not just Dad that’s stressing me out though. Mom is not doing well either. She’s developed some sort of blood disorder that they either haven’t figured out what it is yet or nobody will tell me. They’re giving her weekly infusions of various things to help get her strength back but until then she’s weak and gets tired/dizzy easily every time she gets up and walks a short distance. It scares me. There’s been a number of other things lately too. In the past three weeks the following things broke and had to be repaired or replaced: microwave, refrigerator, air conditioner, my car, Keurig coffee maker, my computer’s power supply, and some other stuff I can’t remember right now. That’s a lot of money that we don’t really have. There’s also Aayla. She’s going to be 12 years old this month and during her last checkup the vet said she has water on her heart and a slight heart murmur. I can’t lose my little buddy, my constant companion! I don’t know what I’d do if anything happened to her. She’s been my reason for staying alive so many times.
So what does being “stressed out” mean to me? I’m stressed out to the point that it manifests into the physical, not just the mental. It completely messes up my digestive system for one and, in addition to the worst acid reflux that medicine can’t treat, it just generally makes a mess of my insides. I also start unknowingly until it’s too late scratching patches of skin on my legs and face until they start to bleed. Now I have small wounds on my legs and a few on my face from where I’ve done this. My legs are the worst because I can usually catch myself before going too far when I’m scratching my face. I also haven’t been sleeping much at all then I’ll catch up on a bunch of sleep for a day or two at a time then back to not sleeping much at all. My circadian rhythm is as messed up as it could possibly be.
So how am I dealing with all of this stress? Not too well but I am trying. I’ve mostly been avoiding it and throwing myself into my hobbies to the point where I forget everything else that’s going on in the world which is mostly, at the moment, The Sims 4. I’ve been creating mods and content for my Simularity website like crazy lately. It’s making my fans happy! It’s a fantastic distraction and I’m so lucky to have it. It’s just the times when I’m not working on something that are hard to get through. I’ve also been obsessing over my Funko Pop collection again so I’ll probably be adding to it again soon, if I can, or going back over what I have in some way. I’d like to get back to my art too if at all possible. I just don’t know about that yet. I guess I could make sure all of my art programs are up to date just in case I do feel like using them in the near future. That would be something.
I am looking forward to going out to see Black Widow this weekend. I’ve been waiting literal years to see it! I already have four Pops from it since I figured they would go up in price once the movie came out. I just hope it’s good. I’m trying to get Mom to come with me so I don’t have to go alone. It all depends on “external factors” so to speak. I’ll see it regardless; I’ve been waiting too long not to and I’d rather not pay another $30 to Disney+.
That’s all for now. I need to… do something to get my mind off of things. I’m not sure what yet. I guess I’ll come up with something eventually. Take care and thanks for reading.