A Life Update
I started to add two new Pops to my Pop Collection Gallery and realized it’s been quite a while since I posted a full entry to this blog. I’ve attempted to do so a few times in the past couple of month but never get around to hitting that “Publish” button for some reason. So, I’ll try again to do that now. We’ll see how this goes.
Let’s see, I’ve been dealing with a depressive episode since the end of February/beginning of March. It’s mostly been situations. Dad’s dementia is getting worse; his short-term memory is almost non-existent, and he gets confused easily. I think he feels depressed too. He doesn’t come out and say it, but it’s kind of obvious at times. Aayla started having arthritis problems in her legs a few weeks ago. She was having so much trouble walking; it was heartbreaking. Luckily, she has responded to medication and is able to walk normally again. For now. Then, the Saturday before last, my mom’s life-long best friend died suddenly from a heart-attack. It always hurts to see my mom cry and she was crying worse than I had seen her cry in a LONG time. She’s still in pain and will be for a long time to come no doubt.
As for me, I’ve been sick as hell with one sinus infection after another. The first round of antibiotics they gave me did nothing. The antibiotics they have me on now are really, really strong and have knocked me on my ass. As long as they work… Also, a character that I worked my ass off on for several months and that I expected to sell several copies of… it sank. I made less than $50 on it during its initial release. That seriously hurt and kicked me down several pegs. I’ve been too depressed about it to work on my art ever since which sucks even more. Oh, and then my therapist of two years told me she was leaving her job and moving out of the area. Everyone always leaves me eventually. It’s just been one kick in the teeth after another.
Although not much about what I just wrote about has improved much, I am starting to come out of this depressive episode. I may not have returned to my art, but I have returned to modding the Sims 4 and my Simularity website/work. I’ve updated countless mods and started creating several new ones, some of which I’ve even already released. I’ll be releasing more new mods soon as I continue to work on them. It keeps me going and I like making my fans happy. I also like getting the donations from my Patreon from those fans!
It hasn’t been easy to work on this stuff though when all I really want to do it crawl back into bed and not get out again until I feel better. That wouldn’t work but the urge is there and is very strong. Plus, I’m just so tired and exhausted all the time. It probably has something to do with that stubborn sinus infection and a vitamin D deficiency I’m also being treated for. No matter how much sleep I get, I always need MORE. I end up resting my head on my desk while I’m working a lot.
At the moment, it’s fricken cold outside (45F during the day) and rainy. It’s supposed to warm up and stop raining next week. I’ll be looking forward to that so I can open my window again to get some fresh air and watch the birds and squirrels in the yard again. It’s fun watching them kick through the leaves on the ground looking for food. I just hope all the cold rain hasn’t disrupted the schedules of all the trees that blossom around here in early spring. I love looking at those too!
Okay, I’ve rambled enough, and I need to take photos of the new Pops that arrived in the mail today so I can add them to this blog later. Thank you for viewing. Take care.